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So just in time for new years eve (which begins in about 2 hours here), I have a new home, a new phone, and a new phone number. I'm still in San Diego, just on the other side of town.
I decided to spend Christmas in my last place, then spend the week between holidays doing last-minute packing and change locations... One holiday in each apartment...

I think it's fitting to move into a new place two days before a new year.

I still need to organize everything, but it feels pretty cozy already. :)

Absence

Sorry for the absence... it should be remedied next week. I've been extremely busy with trying to pack up to move around Christmas... moving day is set for this Saturday, then things should slowly return to normal.

дома

One day I will return to you, my true home. Don’t get me wrong; I love it here in San Diego. The weather is perfect; the people are [for the most part] kind. I’ve gotten to see and experience many things that I wouldn’t have if I had stayed living in Virginia. But this is not home … and if I had not been to you, I may not even recognize that things could be improved or that I was missing something.

Everything about you beckons me to come back, and one day I will. Even the photos from my brief stay reveal a level of contentment, of wonder and an overwhelmed sense of beauty that reflects the breathtaking countryside. I know that I exhibit no such appearance when gazing at anything here, much less when simply going about day-to-day duties.

I’m 22. I have many years ahead. I don’t know when, but I will be back to you, probably more than once. And one of the times, I pledge that I will stay and make you what you deserve to be: my home. 

dear you

you  – you seem to be an incredible person. I love our talks. I look forward to many more.

you  – I wish we got to hang out outside the usual time. I think you could be a fantastic friend.

you – I miss you so much more than I ever realized I would. I grew very attached to you the year before I came here.

you – I know you won’t occupy the old place in my life. but I can’t lose you entirely. I feel like further down the road, we’re going to need each other again.

you – I want to fly into town just to see you. the support we give each other is unmatched, and I think we both need that right now.

you – I’ve noticed that you don’t even pretend to care about anything that happens in my life. all that matters to you is the material. when all this is sorted out I don’t even think I want to hear from you anymore. it’s never about anything good anyway.

you – I’m so thrilled for the two of you. I’ve been waiting for this for a while now. I can’t wait to see you and congratulate you in person.

you – be careful. this is going to be a longer, more difficult journey than you think. you’re filled with so much excitement and joy, but there are many struggles ahead to go along with the happiness.

you – thank you for everything this year. things have turned around beautifully. I knew they could be worked out.  you keep day to day life exciting and pleasant, and for that I thank you.