It's a shame that something I have been looking forward to for so long is being tinged with anxiety and fear about what else will come to pass during that same time. I've been counting down, and so excited, but if things can not be fixed then it's going to be two small happy moments surrounded by a lot of pain and heartbreak.
Oh well, here's hoping for the best. I'm giving this all I have. There's no way I'm going to let myself have the chance to look back later and say "oh, well I wish I had tried harder." I'm not giving myself a chance for regrets. This has been all I've wanted for too long. I'll fight for it.
And I'm seeing In Flames in 18 days, and Eluveitie in 25 days.